Sunday, February 11, 2007

The First Boo-Boo

As a new mom, one of the most frightening things is your precious baby getting hurt or sick in any way. When my little Scarlett got her first shots, I had to fight not to cry. I told everyone that I was switching doctors. Of course I now see that she was just keeping my baby healthy, but at the time I couldn't believe that someone would make my baby cry like that.

This morning, I saw that Scarlett had given herself a little scratch on her nose, so I decided to cut her nails. She was sleeping and I trimmed them all. Then I decided that the pointer finger was not short enough. I was wrong. This time I clipped the tinniest little bit of skin off, and my poor baby awoke with a mighty strong wail that lasted and lasted. She had real tears springing out of her eyes and looked at me as if she would never get over this hurt.

I cleaned off the blood and soothed her and put on a band-aid that looks out of place on her perfect, delicate little finger. I cried and tried to tell myself that I am not the worst mom ever and that Scarlett could forgive me. But that big band-aid is a reminder.

Scarlett will probably get hurt many more times in her life, and I may even be the unintentional cause of more little boo-boos. SHe may not have a perfect mommy, but she does have one who will always be there to kiss her and tell her that it will be okay.


Big Red Driver said...

AAWWWWWWWWWWWW. Poor little sweet Scarlett! We knew you would be a great mom from the minute you picked up your first doll. (That you stole from Kirsten)

Big Red Driver said...

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Anonymous said...

Aaaw - so sad :(
Accidents happen. You are still an awesome Mom. And even in her injured state your baby is so darn cute!

Anonymous said...

I was the first person to give my niece an injury. she was teething and i felt so awful for her little gums so i gave her a frozen icee-thing to chew on (you know, the long fruity crap in a plastic wrapper?). she LOVED it so i let her do it all day. well, the ends gave her little chubby cheeks something close to frostbite, called (excuse my spelling) popciclepaniculitus. she had a red dot on each cheek for weeks. i felt awful.