Saturday, August 22, 2009
Well the time has come for the Iron Girl...The race is tomorrow. Today we have to go pick up papers and set up transition areas and get bikes inspected and ask all of the questions we still have. I am already sick with nerves. I have been training so long I know that I am phisically ready for the race...but I am still not sure how it is going to go. I am pretty worried about the lake swim--somehow I can do it easily in the pool but once I am surrounded by so many others I freak out a little bit. There is a good chance that I will not finish this part of the race, and I will have to go home without a medal around my neck. But I am ok with that. I am really proud of myself for all of the work that I have put into this and feel like I have already accomplished my goal of getting into better shape and trying new things. I know that I will continue to swim and bike and run no matter what happens tommorrow. Even though I have my doubts, I am going to show up in the morning before the sun and do the very best that I can. I am going to keep my mind focused on the scriptures that I memorized and I am going to be an Iron girl regardless. If I do finish this thing, I know that it will not be because of my own strength, but because of His help!
1 "This is what the LORD says to his anointed,
to Cyrus, whose right hand I take hold of
to subdue nations before him
and to strip kings of their armor,
to open doors before him
so that gates will not be shut:
2 I will go before you
and will level the mountains [a] ;
I will break down gates of bronze
and cut through bars of iron.
3 I will give you the treasures of darkness,
riches stored in secret places,
so that you may know that I am the LORD,
the God of Israel, who summons you by name.
4 For the sake of Jacob my servant,
of Israel my chosen,
I summon you by name
and bestow on you a title of honor,
though you do not acknowledge me.
5 I am the LORD, and there is no other;
apart from me there is no God.
I will strengthen you,
though you have not acknowledged me,
6 so that from the rising of the sun
to the place of its setting
men may know there is none besides me.
I am the LORD, and there is no other.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Today we celebrated Ensley's first birthday. Just to prove to me that he is a big boy, he took several steps on his own and insisted on feeding himself everything. He blew out his candle, ripped open his presents and paired up with his daddy to race his new matchbox cars on the track. Watching him be such a big boy made me proud of him and eager to see what this next year will bring. It also made me flash back to a year ago, when we first met. Just a whiff of a thing, swaddled up and asleep in my arms. I feel so blessed to have had this year with him. He is such a treasure to me--his dimpled smile, inquisitive nature and great sense of humor. As expected, I do feel like his babyhood went way too fast and I will miss dearly the time that we spent being so very close. But I am enjoying this too--this time of becoming his own little person. He's my little dude and he always will be! Happy Birthday Enny-Benny I love you!